Yes I love you. Yes you know who you are. No, no not you. You! Yes its you and not you. I hate you, please go away. No! Not you, YOU!

What's wrong with me?

Fuck The Hell Out Of Me.

I suck. People like me sucks. Places with me sucks.

The World sucks when i awake.

Hopefully the World only has a handful of people like me.

God Bless to my friends.

S Club - Say Goodbye


In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'll never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World i'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

It totally speaks the thoughts on my mind.

Ah went back for training once more.

Miss talking to my coach and laughing with the team~! The time spent with them is really enjoyable. Had so much fun talking to them and seeing them once more!

I was suppose to swimming like the rest, but due to unfavorable circumstances(i can't even float, not to say swim!) i chose to stay by the sides and cheer them on HaHa.... Ena's friend was also there, Fulin. Actually kinda know him back then during SaSa. But its too long for him to remember haha. Ah he's really good looking. *Envy*

It's really tiring to swim long distance again after 6 whole months!

But still, I really enjoyed the time spent in the pool!

Ah Hate Firendster.

It's so SLOW!

Btw did i mention i grew taller? I'm 184 now! (But my ideal height is 185cm.)

muahahhahaaaaaaa

The crowd was abit dead initially last night at centro. Ah, my friends wanted to leave but in the end we stay.(Cause if we're to go zouk, we'll have to hail a cab, and its past 12 HaHa, you get what i mean)

People on the dance floor are like molecules in a solid. The music was house and the beat is like shit.(Slow, Half-dead feeling)

I though the night was a goner.

So we sat and drink and watch people "vibrate about a fix position."

It's a good thing that the music is getting more and more intense, and so we finally hop on to the dance floor.

The music is getting better as time passed, so is the crowd.

And not to mention my toes are bit injured as this lady wearing high heel just happened to step on to my feet.

Oh yes last night there was a lot of transvestite and homosexual. The 2 guys dancing beside us kissed. And my girl friends kinda walk further away, which kinda puzzled me. Shouldn't the guys be the one that walk away?

And the lady sitting infront of us, HEShe is horrible!

Ah despite all, its still kinda fun.

I know what I'm gonna say next will make a lot of people hate me.

I FINISHED MY A'S!!!!!

wOhOoOoOoOoo!

Ah, the sight of clear blue sky, the scents of fresh air, and the taste of freedom.

I was smiling at myself once i finished my paper. The feeling was GREAT. I'll be exam free for the next 3 years! And most likely my brain gonna shrink? HaHa. Who cares. For now i just wanna enjoy. PLAY is now only the word that is floating in my brain juice.

*PLAY PLAY PLAY *

But sadly, in march, I'll still have to go for Hell Ns.

Oh and also, this sat will be grand slam between Aussie and Enggish.
In addition to that, the 22nd SEA games are coming. I can't wait to see Mark Chay flying in the pool again.

Once again, I'M FREE!

Hate the weather!
There's no sun!
arrrrrrr......

Oh this is freaky. Check it out.

> > After much examination... confirmed have...
> >
> >
> > this advertisement is very popular in hk cos most of
> > the ppl has seen
> > >something extra in this adv.
> > >
> > > when the director of the ads review the ads in
> > midnight,he discovered that
> > >supposed 6 of the children playing game but there
> > is
> > extra 1 person at the
> > >back. Soon, the kid who been tapped on the shoulder
> > has dead.
> > >
> > > The ads was immediate stop published but it's has
> > already become very
> > >popular in hk. a lot of ppl talking abt it.
> > >
> > > Very eerie!!!
> > >
> > > on 25sec - 27sec,the last person on is a fat
> > boy,his
> > shoulder was tapped
> > >by a gal who nodding down the head. ( she tied 2
> > pony
> > tail)
> > >
> > > When every 1 of the kid's face close up,u can see
> > the little gal who is
> > >nodding down the head.
> > >
> > > muz watch it very carefully cos it's just only 1
> > sec.
> > >
> > > at the last scene, the fat boy is the last 1,then
> > who is she?
> > You can download the mpg file here:
> > http://myweb.hinet.net/home4/treize/o4fun/HK.mpeg
> > Is not scary at all.. don't worry!
> > What do you all think?

I still can figure out which shirt to buy? (Not for prom, but just for upcoming party)
Yes I'm having headache choosing the stupid damn shirt. I love the one from Flash 'n' splash but i also love the one from P.O.A. Oh yes, i can't resist the one from OP, nor the one from Boss.
Ah! Help! *Frown*

Tsk, i realize i can't get the shirt from Boss as i still got 3 BIRTHDAY present to buy(Liyan Chu Hui & Yan Rong) and another upcoming birthday girl.
My cousin gonna celebrate at zouk this friday. Should i go?Or should i just stick with Centro?
*Frown looking at wallet*
This remind me i need to get a job A.S.A.P, otherwise i would not be able to go clubbing when my wallet is empty!

Speaking about partying, that remind me of another thing, dye ash or blonde? (I've been rather flicker-minded there few days)

Ah yes Friday is coming, can't wait to step into centro again. Grooving to the music, getting myself drunk and knowing all the "cool" people out there, haha, it's fun.
Oh ya not forgetting i gonna have 2 more piercing on my ears.

oOoOoOOo I'm jumping with excitement haha!

Christina Aguilera - The Voice Within

Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

Christina rawks!!!! She's my diva forever!

I finally got a chance to relax. Core papers are over and done with. (Don't ask me how I did cause its no so good.)

Tomorrow I'm having a break, decide to go for a tann if the sun is out. (I'm looking at snow white when I look at the mirror. The feeling is horrible!) And yah, pimples starts to pop out all over my face!(So that's make me ugly snow white haha!)

2 weeks will soon be over, and so will be my "Title" as a student. I will not be wearing college uniform anymore, not more collar pin and belt nor tie. Yes its really a hassle to wear them, but for the past 6 years it has certainly become a habit. I'll miss waking up in the early morning taking bus 55 with hui hua to school, I'll miss the food in college, I miss the teachers, I miss my class, I'll miss all the friends I've made(hopefully we can stay in contact) and also I miss my swim team the most.

I was having the thoughts "I can't wait to leave this college" at the beginning of the year. Now, i certainly wanna stay longer in this college.Although most of the teacher may sucks and with all the stupid rules in the school, there's still parts and pieces in the school that brighten my college days.

Yes, without any doubt, one of them is Mdm Ainon. She never fail to make me smile, only when she's in good mood that is. She is the most incredible teacher i ever met, and i really gonna miss her alot!My CT was also great! Mr azahar makes every lesson interesting and interactive and never fail to tell a joke or share what happened in the monring to him or other stuff.Not forgetting he is very undertstanding! He is more than a teacher, a friend.

Speaking of my class, its more of a different groups then a class. Organized a class outing once, and only less then 10 people turn up. Sigh. However i'm still gonna miss them alot.

Swimming! Yes Swimming! My Life, My Everything! I'm so gonna miss the pool, the coach, the fatigueness, the yelling, the competitiveness and of course, my team mates.
"Once you're in the pool, you'll never wanna get out."


Despite a thousand "no's" in my heart, i guess i still have to move on. Who knows, a better future awaits me.

Before i lost my mermories in any possible circumstances, i guess its better for me to write down my journey through times spent at SRJC.....

I was in during the 1st 3 months and got to know this gorgeous by the name of hildya. Have Mrs lim as my CT and i hated it to the max! Joined swimming and mix rather well with the juniors. Before the new term starts, i sign up to be an OGL.

2nd Orientation - Had hell lots of fun, know a lot a lot of people. Enjoying jumping around and yelling the stupid cheers. Haha, those were the days. However kinda sad as hildya left the college, but never mind, i get to know another "cute" girl Liyan, and together with Chu Hui Kent Bryant, we formed the B5 heh. Had lotsa fun crapping around in school. Mr azahar was our CT.

1st National - Had hell lotsa of fun too, though training was extremely tough, but its definitely worth all the time and effort. Know all the babes and hunks at tpy swimming pool. *Cool*

During the mid year period, i was selected for LTC(Leadership Training Camp) and TDP(Talent Development Programme). Had fun in both, mainly in LTC as the people are more active. Know a lot of people from there, great leaders and "Very" intellectual people.

Represented school to attend Temasek seminar. It was awesome. Know people from other colleges (which suppose to be the top 20 from each college. And i have no idea why i managed to be in the top 20.) It was fun. Get to visit OCS for once. Cool!

At the end of the year, got attached to STRATECH for job shadowing (TDP project). Its was not fun as STRATECH is at jurong west and i stay at amk!
Have a Team excellence Camp too. It was REALLY FUN!

Year 2003! A better year for me.

Got to know mdn ainon, and my life starts to change.

Had a Trainee's workshop organized by us LTC. Haha, it was fun, again!

2nd National - It's with great joy when the girls managed to enter the final! But I'm still disappointed over myself. Coach and Mr mah pinned very high hope on me, but i failed them. I did worse then my training timing. It was bad. Sigh. I could have done better, much more better.

Oh ya and i was ask to take photos for college, which is printed onto a book and distributed to other schools (Someone pls, what is it call?)
Had fun taking photos with madam ainon Heh.

Had Graduation Day on 10th October. Had fun taking lotsa picture with all my friends. Haha

Before i knew it, prelim was over. A Level soon engulfs me with much fear.

Now, before i can really enjoy college's life, I'm leaving.

All the ups and downs, al the joy and all the sorrow, all the time spent, all the friends made. They will always have a place in my heart.

Ah, finally finish my layout. It's kinda plain, but i'll look for more stuff to add on. I just love the pictures above haha.

*Ponder*

At last, a 4 days break before my next paper.
Hate the weather nowadays. ITS HOT! And I always have paper in the afternoon. Damn it.

Hrm..... 6 paper down, 4 more to go.
Maths was Okay, Chemistry was Fine, Bio was a KILLER.

Bio is weird.
Structure Qns have answers longer then ESSAY!

I shall not dwell on it anymore....I cant wait for the whole nightmare to end!

Till then, Life sucks!

I'm more than determined to be a Bio-Chemist.
I hope its not too late for me to actually realize my dream.
Yes, I'll do well in my a's. I Will.