i drifted.

i saw the updated list of my dragon boat team after weeks of finalizing. i was excited.

but i scrolled up and down, up again, and thought something was amiss. some familiar names were gone. i went blank.

i've been told so many times, that the only constant is changes.

"changes for the better" you said.

but more then often, i let myself escaped from reality and pretend everything is still the same. i deceived myself when i don't hear the usual laughters on the boat anymore. i lied to myself during lunch when the usual bags are not around. and i closed my eyes whenever i missed u all.

...

叶巳落,昼巳尽.
微风吹过,
轻弹了沉淀的思念.

someone once told me that the sun and the moon were once living happily together, and all other celestial bodies were envy of their devotions.

but years passed, and the sun got brighter and brighter while the moon stay dull.even thou the moon still loves the sun, but the moon start to get very insecure. and words started to spread from stars to stars, that the sun would be better off with another, instead of staying in this solar system with the moon.

but the sun pledge its love for the moon, for as long as it is burning.

but words are only words.

the sun soon received too much attention and lost its affection for the moon.

the moon couldn't possibly request the sun not to shine anymore, so the moon only realized that 2 of them belong to different world.

the day and the night.

and maybe, just maybe, this is why people only cry at night.